INDIVIDUAL CHAPTER 

    I HAVE BECOME AN INDIVIDUAL NOW WITH NOW CASH COW...A CHAPTER OF MY OWN HAS BEEN SHOWN TO ME YOU SEE. I BE SHAWN...FOR WE ALL KNOW THIS. I WAS GIVEN THE KISS OF DEATH AND CAME BACK...SORT OF. FROM ONE WORLD TO ANOTHER I DO SPEAK...TRY TO BE MEEK...YET STILL SEEK. I SEARCH FOR THE TRUTH NOW AND NOT SURE HOW. THERE WAS SO MANY LIES GOING AROUND I HAD FOUND THAT THE TERM I AM DID HAVE A SELFISH SIDE. WITH NO WHERE TO HIDE FROM MY SELF I HAD TO FACE THE TRUTH INSIDE OF ME. TWO BODIES IN MY CLOSET...THE RABBIT OF FERTILITY AND THE SOUL NAMED KITTY...DEAD AND BURIED INSIDE THE GARDEN I HAD FEED FROM. IT'S NO WONDER I WAS SICK WITH THOSE KIND OF THINGS CAUSING ME PAIN. EVEN IF I DID NOT GET JUSTICE FOR BEING MURDERED BACK THEN THE ANGER INSIDE OF ME WAS BURNING HOLES IN MY SOUL. IT WAS A PIECE OF COAL THAT WOULD NEVER BECOME A DIAMOND FROM THE PRESSURE...JUST SITS AND FESTERS. I REALIZED THE REVENGE WAS ON FATES HAND EVEN IF I DID THINK THAT MAN BE A BIT UNFAIR...I HAD TO GET RID OF THE HARE. WHEN THE GIANT CRYSTAL OF THE ATLANATIAN TEMPLE FELL ON TOP OF A PLEAIDIAN CAUSING A WAR AND SEALING PAIN INSIDE OF THE MEMORY OF THE PLANET. GAIA COULD BE REBORN A MILLION TIMES AND  THAT SOUL WOULD ALWAYS THINK OF THAT MOMENT WHEN IT CRUSHED HER BODY BECAUSE THREE WOMEN WANTED ALL THE GOLD AND JEMS INSIDE THE TEMPLE FOR THEM SELVES. IN THE MIDST OF THE WORST STORM THE ISLAND EVER SAW THEY STOLE EVERYTHING THE PORTALS NEEDED FOR BALANCE AND CONTROL. LIGHTENING THEN STRUCK THE MASSIVE 30 FOOT HIGH STONE AND WITH NO OTHER WAY TO CHANNEL AL THAT ENERGY LIKE USUAL IT TURNED THE STONE INTO A WEAPON WHILE SITTING ON TOP OF KITTIES SQUISHED BODY. THE ISLAND ENDED UP SINKING ALL BECAUSE OF CARELESS GREED. SO YOU SEE IT WASN'T JUST MY DEATH THAT WAS THE PROBLEM...COUNTLESS THOUSANDS OF OTHERS DIED TOO. IT CHANGED THE COURSE OF OUR WORLD FOREVER WITH NO WAY TO FIX THAT PART. WE HAD TO RESTART. SO LAST NIGHT I GAVE UP THE FIGHT AND LET GO OF LIFE. THE CONTRACT OF STRIFE WAS RIPPED UP AND SHE AGREED I INDEED DESERVED A CHANCE TO BE AN INDIVIDUAL FOR ONCE. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO GO FROM HERE BUT I AM ON MY WAY OUT OF THE MIND OF MADDNESS. IT WILL NOT BE MY BANE FOR IT ALL IS THE SAME ANY WAYS. IT IS A SHAME IN MANY WAYS...BUT IT IS NOT MINE. I WAS CLEARED OF THOSE CHARGES WHEN THEY SAW THE TRUTH OF HOW I WAS DEAD AND THE WOMEN CONTINUED TO GATHER UP ALL THE RICHES THEY COULD BEFORE FLEEING SAFELY FROM THE SINKING ISLAND.
     I SAW MY SELF GO DOWN THE ELEVATOR FROM HEAVEN TO LIFE ONLY TO DISCOVER I WAS GOING TO DIE IMMEDIATELY. MY GUARDIAN ANGEL WAS THERE AND AS REAL AS ANY PERSON TO ME. I TOOK THE SHOT FOR HIM MORE THEN ONCE OVER THE YEARS AND HE KILLED HIMSELF TO BE WITH ME. I LAY IN THE BED AS THE WORLD UNFOLDED AROUND ME. TRUTH WAS IN ME THE WHOLE TIME AND EVEN THOUGH I DO KNOW IT IS BEFORE ME AS WELL IT STILL FEELS LIKE A SPELL OF PAIN SOME HOW. MY LOVE STILL IS DELAYED WITH HIS WORK AND SO I MUST DEAL BY MY SELF. MIKAELA COMES AND GOES FROM ME AS WELL AND MY MIND IS NOT AS CLEAR AS I THOUGHT IT WAS...I LOSE THINGS IN MY HEAD EVERY TIME I COME BACK FROM THE DEAD. SADLY THERE IS A PART OF ME THAT DOESN'T CARE THE WAY I SHOULD. I WOULD STILL DO CRAZY BRAVE STUFF BECAUSE MY LIFE ISN'T AS IMPORTANT TO ME AS OTHERS. MAYBE ITS MY WARRIOR SOUL FROM THE DAYS OF OLD. IT IS WARMER AND NOT SO COLD AND HURTFUL AS IT WAS ...I DO ADMIT I MISS MY SWEET CUZ. WHAT IS THERE TO DO BUT CONTINUE THROUGH THE DOOR AND PRAY WE DON'T ALL DIE IN A PLAGUE OR WAR...OR EVEN A GRAND SHOW OF THE SUN FLARES. I HEAR WE SHOULD DO LIKE MOTHER EARTH AND PUT ON SUCH A GRAND SHOW THE WORLD STOPS IN SHOCK AND SAYS 'WOW'. MAYBE THAT'S WHY I AM HERE...OR MAYBE ITS TO TEACH YOU HOW TO BE GREAT LEADERS AND TEACHERS WHILE I SIT IN SANCTUARY AND MEDITATE. I WOULD LIKE TO BE GREAT AND HAVE ALL SORTS OF MONEY LIKE OTHERS YES BUT MY GUESS IS THAT DOESN'T MATTER IN THE END...IT'S THE LOVE YOU GIVE AND SHOW YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS. YOU CAN TAKE THOSE MEMORIES WITH YOU AFTER ALL BUT NOT THE MONEY AND STUFF YOU EARNED. I KNOW MANY FOLKS WHO IGNORE ME IN THAT SELFISH PURSUIT. I FEEL STEPPED ON SOME DAYS AS THEY USE MY WAYS TO MAKE THEM SELVES FAMOUS AND RICH. THOSE ARE THE ONES I WISH KARMA AND FATE WOULD VISIT...ALONG WITH ALL THOSE STILL ALIVE WHO HELP ME TO DIE WITH THEIR BLACK MAGIC WAYS. THEY BETTER WATCH OUT BECAUSE THOSE KINDS OF THINGS I AM TOLD HAVE A WAY OF CIRCLING BACK AROUND UNTIL IT HAS FOUND THE PROOF, THE MASTERS OF FATE AND KARMA, AND FINALLY YOU AS IF IT WAS ON A BOOMERANG. THE TRUTH SHALL NOT ONLY SET YOU FREE YOU SEE...IT ALSO CANT BE HIDDEN FOR LONG. IT ALWAYS FINDS A WAY TO BE KNOWN, HEARD, SEEN, AND BELIEVED. 
    I TOOK THE BINDING CORDS OTHERS PUT ON MY SOUL WITH OTHERS AND PUT THEM BACK ON TO THE ONES THEY CAME FROM. THAT WAY IF IT COMES BACK IT WAS MEANT TO BE IN THIS LIFE TIME AND IF IT DOESN'T...IT WASN'T. I WANT IT TO BE BECAUSE THEY WANT TO BE WITH ME AND NOT SOME PAST OBLIGATION THEY FEEL. I WANT TO HEAL TOO AND THIS I KNEW WAS THEY WAY. YOU CAN PRAY OR DANCE THE NIGHT AWAY...WHILE I MAKE MY MIND STILL AND ALLOW THE UNIVERSE TO DO AS IT MAY. FOR IT IS NOT ON ME THESE THINGS I AM JUST A TOOL FOR IT NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND. I WILL NOT BE BOUND ALSO BECAUSE SOME ONE SAID SO...BUT BECAUSE I TRUST...I SEE THE PROOF BEFORE MY EYES...I HEAR THE SWEET WORDS FOR YOUR LIPS...AND NOT FROM AN EMPTY TEXT YOU SEND ME. ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU DON'T GIVE ME ALL THE INFORMATION AS TO WHO YOU TRULY ARE. SOME ONE WANTS IT FROM ME AND YET THEY WONT GIVE THE SAME TO ME. THAT SCREAMS FOUL TO MANY I KNOW AND MAKES ME WONDER THE TRUTH BEHIND YOUR SHOW. ARE YOU JUST A PLAYER? A WOMANIZER WHO SEEKS A COLLECTION OF FOLLOWERS SO YOU FEEL IMPORTANT? I DON'T ASK FOR MONEY...NOW I THINK OF IT MAYBE I SHOULD...IT WOULD BOOST MY ABILITY TO CONTINUE ON THIS INDIVIDUAL CHAPTER OF LIFE.