Normally I post a photo along with my blog but this one is different as this is of a subject I can not even picture yet its true. Many a year I thought I was nuts mostly because what I experienced in this world came in the form of visions or dreams. Then one day as I was doing a past life reading on one of my online friends I came across a shocking truth of not only her but my self...we knew each other. I sensed she was queen Sarah...one of the queens that plagued my various lives. She was basically a failure who got many killed when she did the unthinkable for power. She and I went to the time of Atlantis...along with another woman whom is now dead...they plotted to destroy a powerful weapon crystal...using me as a distraction. I was a guy on a ship you see when I was need to be a girl with them. My sister then became my mother now...and speaking to Sarah reawaken all those memories every one had hoped to stay buried. My sister tried to kill me on the ship and got me down to the ground where I looked like a girl after that...and that's when I met queen Sarah. She still doesn't know the whole story but now I can't trust any of them sadly. My sister mother freaked in this life now because I can heal fast if I wish to...thing is I barely want it. Their combined plots were why my people created their own collective separate from the royals who kept screwing shit up. They had no real idea what they were doing then and now and only bring chaos when they claim help. It seems like lately just as I think I know the truth from someone I see the deception involved and how in the past lives each one I knew failed me badly. Like queen Sarah...she too was later my guardian as a Templar and I a grail child.
    Sarah had me with others and they swore no harm would come but they chose to abandon me alone and go after the ark of the covenant instead...which is one reason they lost favor in the world besides the greed they later ended up with after. I was lost to the world and hidden in an under ground temple of mirrors until I bounced around through time and the multiverse worlds. Last night I traveled again to one of the queens rooms she had set aside for me after I went silent refusing to inter act with any of them. I burned many a book they needed for the crystal weapon...so much for their lies on the space ship too. I wasn't going to make it easy for them and why they thought this asshole would is beyond me. I might have a crazy need to die to protect the secret but I am definately not stupid. That's not the kind of power to fall in anyone's hands let alone power hungry control freaks. I mean really each of these fools now lie to me as if I am fragile one second or a complete bother the next. I can't keep their shit straight any more and don't believe its possible to make a utopia as nice an idea as that might be. I would like to think the prophecy of Jesus being accepted back and the world not suffering or hating anymore is true but a big part of me thinks that's a pipe dream... like me having a soul mate show up on my door step. I barely believe my old friend and secret crush would agree finally to come to me let alone all that other shit. Thanks to all the lies the woman and their forked tongued friends spoke I don't even think my sister queen Sarah's words no more. So what if this fool needs proof now...at some point someone has to show some sort of evidence...I mean really when the grail says here I am come get me and no one bothers to do anything but laugh and make fun whats a person supposed to think. That's all they ever did to me before so why would now be the same? Jesus him self could show up and most folks would claim anti-christ if he made on mistake. But I will continue on me own as I know my destiny runs separate from theirs after awhile...I'd rather be an unknown basically then a royal blame-tard...aka the fool who gets blamed even though they had no clue their own people plot against them and were so good at deception even the best oracle can't see. then again we never really want to see the faults of those we love do we? I most imagine that's why my lord has trouble believing me...but then again...he is missing out on meeting up with his true love and his best destiny by ignoring me. Oh well...guess that's on his head not mine as at least I did the right thing by speaking the truth. I can't make folks believe it...i can only say it.