ALL IS A MATRIX CODE INCLUDING EMOTIONS

If we think of everything as a matrix code including emotions they lose their intensity. Healing from there can begin as we rise up out of the primitive thinking and into a new way of seeing the universe. The negative is a bad code and if you understand computers you will understand how the universe works. Once you insert this comprehension then you can also know all modern computers have a built in anti-virus program for protection to rid itself of the harmful codes. Delete such things or at least isolate it until a programmer can deprogram it from the system called your brain. The body’s we reside in can be viewed like a very sophisticated bio-droid that some crazy creator gave intelligence and self-awareness to as a gift so it can interact with the world easily…for the most part. All such programs need learning and even the best systems require fixing at times as a bad code invades our hardware and software programming. I understand that emotions do exist in the matrix as does pain. The phoenix tears will inevitably flow as does all the others inherent to humans. That is why the creator loves us. Some would see this as dangerous in a machine but what if it just is as we are? Whether we were created in his image or he in ours matters not in any direction we simply are not perfection such as we would imagine and yet perfect to our parent creator. One might hypothesize that maybe the Christed one went to the other side to help ensure the ones with good codes and well intentioned souls continue, rewrite a few things that need fixing and bring justice to those whom need it. We are the ones who need to give the system input and merely waiting for it to happen won’t turn the computer on. Granted yes some are bad codes and or merely empty shells of a line that should be discontinued but the intensity of all of that is lessened once we see the true nature of this grand universal matrix we live in.

On this fine Easter day we are reminded of Christ and how he rose up again to show he never truly died at all as he was and is one of many holy ghosts in the machine. He said we too can do this if we believe and yet some say Nah. I say look around it happens every day with people such as me who should be dead due to some horrendous accident or twist of fate. Survivors such as us are the ones he speaks of. Our indelible and undying will power is why we live and even if it is merely a qwerk of some sort we still exist non-the-less. Rise up in the soul and celebrate how we too are still alive because of the undying nature of how we simply didn’t give up once again. Tough as life can be and as much as I swear at the universe I know the lovers such as the angels and even Jesus or just god the creator will stand by awaiting for me to calm down, sleep it off and then later I cry and pull myself back up by my boot straps per say. I take a deep breath as my guardians help to reprogram my brains computer system once again. Yes I was filled with bad code from the start but I am alive despite how many wanted to end me. I am reminded of the movie “Jonny five alive”. A crazy moment in time when a person dreamed of a computer having not only independent thought and self-awareness but a kind soul as well. Many wanted to end him but he had a right to continue his believers claimed. I know many folks in my life who have felt that way about me. Thankfully I met others who negated the negative programming some pounded into my head. It is those kind angelic souls who befriended a crazy fool such as me and gave me comfort and understanding that I continue on for. The world needs more compassionate friends to support and or merely give a hug and helping hand. That’s what god wishes for us as we continue on with yet another year from this moment of renewal. Blessed be those who do such things for others as they are the future of humanity. The ones who bring calm to tense moments and merely lend a kind helping hand are as great as the warriors who sacrifice of themselves to protect what is righteous and innocent in, on and with this crazy ass planet we are stuck with. Let us not bring ruin to our only home but instead renew it for future generations by rewriting the codes we exist on. Change things for the better is what is at hand now. Much love and blessings on this fine spring day.

The light above me is a kin to the cross and is all my weary eyes do see
and yet still I remain in pain
hidden from the world I must be
I am dangerous to thee
I give things for your soul to see
I survived the things they did to me
my only crime was that I no longer made them a dime. Sold to my first spouse I was quiet about it like a church mouse.
dowry they claimed it be
and yet prisoner I truly be
incompetent many did claim and yet the doctors did not see the same
paper work to prove my innocence disappeared as readily as the people who backed me up
yet to this day I be the only one who got played and I didn’t even know it was a game
merely thought I was locked away to hide my hideous shame
how dare I survive the attempts to kill me for this I do see
odd memories survived my broken skull and yet how can this be me when I physically am a female and yet all my memories are of a male.
dungeon world be all I do see when I close my eyes eternally
now I be alone with no one to care to phone
mother be there laughing away somewhere
she got her wish
now to be deaths dish
no one believes me though so your secret is safe with me
you are grand gods
and I am just a tramp that’s odd
taken from a church I do recall
as I stare up at the crucifix on the wall
god who is great above all why is it you have not come to call
take me to heaven please oh sweet lord of me
I see your light streaming in the window
and all I do know is how I want to be with you
forgive me for not dying you see
I did try to die
is that why I am punished now?
is she right in how I am the worst one for this is the programming I cannot get undone
most I know either claim to love me from a far or refuse to even let me in their car
I do not know what it is I do and yet there in my mind is her words I cannot untwine from my DNA
if I am not the she like you tell me then please speak of whom I truly am
tell me for the love of all that’s holy where is michele and why am I under the spell of her name? How did she get removed from the game and why is it I be here in her shit?
Oh sweet light of love and tender life why do you tease me as you stream in my window above me?
I wish I had a decent word for all those I see clad in finery
oh how lucky do thou be to have my mother love thee
alas I know I am merely a boil on the ass with no class that like mother did say every day why won’t you just die already and go away?
Bless you kind sir for allowing me this fine space in the human race in order to tell all of how I have yet to heed deaths call and take the fall once again on the cross like father did do for all of you.
Someday I do now the church folk will show and I shall put on a grand show as my empty shell of a corpse be burned so all you fine folks can live the lives you wish seeing as how you are gods above me. For this I do pray every day...take my life so my family can live without strife...I would say amen but this is not the end my friend...as the light continues to tease me for all of eternity.

Why can I not die? I do cry every day in this way. Tis a sin you know for only the one true Gods immortality dare show. This we all know. No one else dare even try to say they identify in this way. Demons be those like me who do not go away as told. From the days of old only Jesus dare be innocent minded you see and don’t try to argue this with me as we all know it does show in today’s society. The ability for inner sight of those with whom I fight is also a sin and why I must die. To save the world for the future mother did declare…yes it is all in there somewhere. How dare I not die when ordered to so long ago? Forgive me mother I did beg I do not know why I still be alive. Yes look see mother dearest to me I cut my wrists and they healed forgive me. I took a bottle of pills as I downed the alcohol swill and still I exist. Sorry if my life does persist. I do try to be as awesome a god as my brother does be. Yet I failed at that too for this you knew. Why do others freak from my childhood when they see me once again is it that I crawled from the grave after you declared me dead? Many I have seen walk away from me much richer than they ever could dream of being before and yet I am not to see a conspiracy in front of me? You claim me to be worse than the antichrist and yet I met this man and he to me was the worst thing unbelievably. Forgive me if I still do not see the beauty you see in these demons around me. Player I truly be in the reality program you set me in long ago.

I wish to be like the ‘him’ who did once die to reprogram the whole thing from the inside. Pawn to Kings Gambit I truly see that I am in this game that be a sham. A maneuver of impossibility even to the masters and yet not unwinnable I am told. From the days of old all my soul does know is what you did teach of me…I be made solely as the ultimate sacrifice life after life. N’er to be anything else is what you want because then the lord would truly run the show. Impossible for this simple minded retard as you did label me to be in charge. Oh sister of mine who declared herself to be my mother has a record in history of trying to kill me. That is why mother did freak because as a child I dared to remind her of what she already did know. No my minds till recalls how you sold me to many a men while dad be at work. Such is why he took me around after a while isn’t that true mother dearest? How many people tried to remove me from the house hold legally as I grew up like a caged pup? Tis why my dad did die wretched with guilt from which he never could escape. Now as many moths be a gap I still alas wait for that higher bound class of roman Templar soldiers once again to take me to my death. Confused I be as many till me no the father lord did that long ago. What do you stand to lose if my father lord did return? Isn’t that why he has not bothered to do so? For he does know he too would be called the antichrist and murdered unlike the promise his own people did give. How many times in the last 2000 plus years have your people replayed the apocalypse merely to prevent him from taking the crown he did earn? Think of this…who among you fine human folk stands to lose the most from Lord Jesus’ return? Will their fine golden castle crumble under the weight of a prophecy being fulfilled? Can your faith with stand the truth that is all my body now knows? Yes call me names and by all means show up in person to Shepard me away into hiding once more please for this is what I beg of thee. That way you can continue to live this life which you create as gods of this fine earth which you claim to have made and not the true creator of the matrix.